翻越層層的山脈

I am not the one be laid off,
but I am still upset about this.
He is my senior Dan.
For the past several month, I have been working with him on many projects.
He always treated me very kindly and anwered my questions patiently.

It all happened this morning.
He gave me some returns he already reviewed for me clearing points.
I had a question about the point, so I stopped by his desk.
And then I saw he was packing...
That time I didn't realize.
I just thought he might go out for another client or work from home.
I asked him as usual and he did too.
I didn't even ask him where he is going...
But I did feel weird.

Until the afternoon, my senior manager responsible for this engagement came to me.
He asked me for the files.
I told him Dan should have those and he might bring back home.
However, he wanted me to check out from the record room.
I didn't understand at all at that moment.
So the senior manager pulled out the files by himself.
And I had so many questions in my mind???

Shortly after that, I talked to the other staff who is also working with Dan.
He told me that Dan does not work here anymore.
I was too shocked to say anything or do any work.
But that all makes sence now...

I also heard the details from the other seniors.
HR and managers came to my senior around 9:30 and let him go immediately.
I can't believe it!!!
How can they just let him disappear quietly and forever?!
I did not have a chance to say something to him...
Though I know it's a bad thing and probably I don't know what to say,
I still want to say goodbye to him...
I can't stand thhe American way to lay off people...
I felt so sad today.

Now I am worried. Will I be the next?
Actually I have the least chargeable hours.
I won't make the goal even I have Eaton.
They already transfered my Indian colleage to GES and laid off my senior this week.
Is there any further movement?
My korean colleage is also worried since she has no engagement after this month.
If she were gone as well, I would have no friend in my group.
And then maybe I have no reason to stay?!
net and Linda is going back soon as well, should I still stay in U.S.?
I am wondering now...